Like a Phoenix
Rising up from the ash.
That’s how I feel right about now. Like I’ve been in the fire, again, living and reveling IN IT for the past several weeks. Yup, so far, 2011 has been quite the ass-kicking. [And it seems like I am not the only one.] Brief recap- Within the first 6 weeks of the year, I lost a dear friend to an untimely death. A few days later, my relationship ended with a true love of my life who simply, was no longer in love with me. I lost a contract at a massage job, and a magazine I was freelance writing for went out of business.
All within 2 weeks of each other.
So yeah, I’ve been in it.
And it’s been easy to stay in it. Way too easy. But today, I had a realization. Well, quite a few realizations really.
One- Why not use these experiences, these hardships, and this new found bounty of free time, to start sharing again? I used to blog, and I’m in the process of writing a book, so why not start up again?
Two- it’s easy to get caught up in the drama, in feeling sorry for yourself for the things that have happened. But often, all these things happen in clusters for just the opposite reason- to create space for less drama and more happiness. Sometimes, life gives us what we really, truly wanted all along, but were just too afraid to actually ask for them.
And, Three- The best option, no, the only option, is to pull your shit together and step out of the fire, a new woman. To see that all that really happened was the burning away of the things that no longer served, and all that is left is the fresh, sweet nectar of who you really are.
In essence, seeing that, yet again, I let the Shakti do her work. I let the goddess in again, and she certainly took care of things.
I have been SHAKTIFIED.
And I am here to start sharing the journey with all of you again.