Embracing Your ALPHA

Today I was cleaning & stumbled upon 👆🏻: my bib from my first marathon that I ran 14 years ago this month.
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It was the race that started it all. I soon moved to SF from NYC & began a long stint competing & coaching while also working my grueling day job in finance.
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What struck me today though wasn’t the glory & race times & PRs that came after, but the feeling of signing up for something I thought was impossible.
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It was the scariest thing I had ever done & the easiest choice I ever made.
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Here’s the thing- I’m not someone who will ever win a race or be top of my age group.
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In fact, I’m regularly one of the last to finish: speed+ me just don’t coexist no matter how fit I am. It took me a long time to accept the strengths of my body & truths- but that acceptance was 🔑to keep moving forward.
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Do I want to be the fastest? At times yes.
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But it is from racing that I learned that the real 🔑to success is in honoring who I AM, not who I think I should be.
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This has also been key to my most recent evolution {bc we are ALWAYS evolving}. 
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What I wish I was? A woman who fits in, is BFF with everyone, is ‘one of the girls’. And oh Lord has that wish landed me in a lot of trouble over the years by holding back, not speaking up, over giving & having terrible boundaries for far too long.
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The Truth I was hiding from? That I am an Alpha woman🔥When I had this epiphany it felt much like the moment I signed up for this race:
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A simultaneous ‘Oh my God this is IT’ and ‘Oh shit, this means I really need to Show Up & OWN IT’
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Some of the muck I had to clean up- with my body, relationships, food, alcohol- often felt like the grueling long runs training for a marathon.
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Days where I wanted to give up, stay quiet or battle back- but stood in my power instead. 
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And an amazing thing happened- the more I began to love & accept this is who I AM, the more I found other women like me- strong, confident, no bullshit, no drama & Fierce- real fierce, not play Fierce 😉
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Part of my mission now is to help women embrace your Alpha- even if you don’t believe she’s in there🔥
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Fair ⚠️ Once you do, everything in your life WILL change- for the better❤️