When we slip back into NOT doing

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I was fiercely committed to the NOT doing the past few days. Not out of need or necessity, but rather of reaching a perceived capacity of how fully I could feel- and express- my power.
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It happens to all of us. We reach a point that at one time felt elusive. The mythical number or the legendary place or the ‘oh my God’ it’s actually FINALLY happening... and we get scared of just how powerful we are. So we turn back in, or create situations to worry about, or convince ourselves we don’t need it- whatever ‘it’ is.
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I posted a meme of Wonder Woman & her alter-ego in PJ’s this morning half-joking, half-this-is-reality, because we all have those moments where our power outshines what we thought we were capable of, and we try to course correct. To go back to where we think we are safe. To hide from that thing we said we wanted all along.
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I hit some major milestones the past two weeks all while having fun, going to Disneyland, eating more food than I thought I even could, signing new clients & feeling great. Simultaneously Oliver started a cough we’re concerned about- and I chose to latch onto this to worry about/ create anxiety around instead of celebrating ALL the amazing things. 
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Funny how we do that huh? Create a drama or injury or circumstance when life is going great to bring ourselves down a notch (or three or four) and back into our inertia. Yes sometimes we *absolutely* need rest. And yes sometimes recovery is 💯 necessary. Problem is when we try to make THAT our normal again, and mentally kick & scream our way out of the things we know work.
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So tonight I fought my way onto the bike, even when I was convinced I didn’t want to, and had more to say on this in Stories 👆🏻{excuse the sweat, tonight’s ride was a BEAST 💦💦💦, right @charleneora77 !}, and WAY more over the coming weeks & months in a new format I’m equally excited & terrified to bring you- which means it’s exactly what’s needed 👊🏻🔥👑
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Where have you reached a perceived capacity & tried to run back into ‘safer’ territory? Can you take the first steps back in the direction you were going & commit to the journey ahead, even if it feels edgy? Especially if so? 🔥