Are you reasy to Accept your Intensity?

For much of my life, the feedback that I’m ‘intense’ and/ or ‘intimidating’ has been a sore spot for my heart to hold.

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I love life to feel rich & like I’m fully BEING in the world. But the ferocity of this often left me feeling lonely & like I’m Too Much. ..

This loneliness would then turn to anger & resentment, which then led to other names I don’t wish to repeat.

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The truth is that for a long time I forgot how to safely channel my intensity. So I lived a life masked as the Warrior who could dance in the dark, but secretly was mush on the inside wishing my fire could blaze bright beyond the battlefield of my heart.

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{Hint: if you know a woman fiercely in her Warrior, this is likely the case}

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The irony is when I was racing & working in finance, I had that channel- but I had no idea how to care for my body to support the intensity {now- I’ve cracked the code}.

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So I stopped & I left & I created a void where my fierceness used to shine, but nothing fully filled it again until last year when I realized my ambition & a strong body could not only co-exist, but thrive together.

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➕Truth is: I was deathly afraid to unleash that side of myself again➕

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My time in the healing & yoga worlds told me it was wrong to be so intense, to want to move & DO so much. My time in the coaching world told me I should love my body as she is{I absolutely do} but not try to change her. My foray into the spiritual world left me in the darkness- often unable to see the light of that blazing intensity.

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All of which I now own as excuses to try to be who I was not to fit in. To safely hide in the shadows & refuse my Joy for the comfort of others.

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Last year, I got sick & tired of dialing it down & suddenly no longer feared my intensity. One night too many traversing the dark as I had no other channel for my Fierceness led me straight back into my own arms. ➕Of course we need to face our shadows, but we aren’t meant to dwell there➕

Now I am devoted to my Fierce Light & Joy 🔥

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Are you ready to embrace your intensity? 

Are you ready to reframe your Fierce? Are you ready to feel the power your body holds? 

Are you ready to redefine your Ambition?

Then love- it’s time 🔥

Jennifer Blackstock