Mirror mirror

A little Wednesday afternoon 🔥for us all. I’ve always loved a good Fairytale, but for a long time I was constantly looking for the thing or person or situation or body or money that would ‘save’ me.

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Eventually that left me tired as hell, not where I wanted to be & overall just dissatisfied with- well- just about everything 🤷‍♀️

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Until I flipped the script the other way & went full throttle into becoming my own heroine. Which worked in the short run... but often left me spiritually exhausted, in some really tricky territory {of epic proportions no doubt} & oddly, just as dissatisfied 🤔

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So finally I decided to drop the need for there to be any story at all, and instead just do the damn things already- even if I had no idea how, or had fallen 10 times before, or if I felt I didn’t have the support of others. And with that, I finally let go of a number of things I had been trying SO hard achieve that deep down, I had no desire for at all. .

Because you know what? At the end of the day the only person whose opinion of me matters- is ME. And for a loooooong time {longer than I care to admit frankly} I wasn’t fully living that.

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Well- not anymore. Pleasing & posturing & constricting my words & dimming who I am to make others more comfortable is something I’m simply not available for anymore. .

Know what else I’m not available for? Keeping my goals small or my ambition hidden because of preconceived notions spread by brands & groups that tell me what I should want for my life, how I should be speaking, what I should be writing, what I should want for my body, my business & more. .

Because the irony has become stifling- Be yourself, but only if it fits in with us. And Fierce One- I know I’m not alone in not wanting to play that game anymore 💥

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*Sidenote: just because an opinion or movement is popular does NOT mean that it’s right for you*

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So the space all of this has opened up in my life? Well if you’ve been following me for a while I think the proof is damn evident 👊🏻

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At the end of the day, I can finally say I LOVE what I see in the mirror- not because of size, but what’s in my eyes now: a love for myself deeper than any I’ve ever known❤

Jennifer Blackstock