Midlife Magic

'I think midlife is when the universe gently places her hands upon your shoulders, pulls you close & whispers in your ear:
I’m not screwing around. It’s time. All of this pretending & performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate & getting hurt – has to go.

Your armor is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armor could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy of love & belonging, but you’re still searching & you’re more lost than ever.

Time is growing short. There are unexplored adventures ahead of you. You can’t live the rest of your life worried about what other people think. You were born worthy of love & belonging. Courage & daring are coursing through you. You were made to live & love with your whole heart. It’s time to show up & be seen.’’ ~ Brene Brown
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Entering my late-30’s last summer brought this fire of Truth blazing hot into my life. I got tired of the seeking. Utterly bored with the consciousness expanding & wound healing. Sick & tired of the drama that seemed to be part of those communities. A friend once called it mental & spiritual masturbation & that hit home so deep I just had to get the hell out of it. Safe, but not fucking living.
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Moving from Warrior ⚔️to Queen 👑 seems to be the name of the new game- at least for me- while also taking no shit along the way.
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Having an ‘online brand’ has always been edgy for me as I’m actually intensely private, but with this energy 👆🏻a new frontier of VIDEO has been calling me forward.
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It’s not ready yet, but the channel has been created, the camera just arrived & I’m dipping my toes into the area I’ve always known I need to go, but my excuses were reigning supreme.
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Am I scared? Absolutely. I tried fiercely to talk myself out of it this weekend & convince myself that the safe place is better. 
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When we know our next step, it’s supposed to feel edgy. It’s supposed to be scary. But there is also butterflies when thinking of it & cant wait to make it real.
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So courage- oh Hell Yes 🔥👑🖤⚔️