Fierce Miracles in the air
โจ๐๐ค๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ฎ๐จ ๐๐ฉ ๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐๐๐๐ก๐จ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ก๐๐จ ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐๐ง โจโฃโฃ
Today marks 18 months since my dadโs passing of a heart attack. Itโs not one of the โbigโ anniversaries so it wasnโt on my radar, but yesterday had me feeling all sorts of ways about all sorts of things. But when I woke up this morning bright eyed and ready to GO, in the middle of my run I realized the date + paused here at the ocean.โฃโฃ
In many ways the two days were mirrors of what Iโve experienced these past 18 months:โฃ
Simultaneously missing him fiercely + processing grief as I move about everyday life, while also feeling ๐๐ผ grounded + ๐๐ผ much love + ๐๐ผ much Grace + truly inspired around ๐๐ผ many things.โฃโฃ
The tide has turned to 99% of my days being latter, but when the former comes back in it can throw me for a loop. โฃโฃ
Itโs a wild ride- and today Iโm feeling extra grateful & celebratory of the life of a man who taught me so much- especially how to press forward when life throws curveballs.โฃ
Whenever โlife would happenโ {insert whatever drama or crisis was unfolding} he would be one of the first I turned to. Heโd sit me down to let me rant & rave but then would always say:โฃโฃ
๐๐ - ๐๐ค ๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐ฃ๐๐. โฃ
๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ค๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฟ๐ ๐๐๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐๐ฉ?โฃ
For those first few days after he passed, I felt a deep burning inside me to carry SO many of the lessons forward- especially around purpose, health & wellness.โฃโฃ
But once home, I just wasnโt sure about the whatโs or howโs + instead just had to FEEL it all {especially that rant & rave part}.โฃโฃ
But lately Iโve been asking myself his question again & the answers are starting to become clear.โฃ
And as he always said- โฃโฃ
๐๐ฃ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ, ๐๐ฉโ๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฝ๐ช๐๐ ๐๐ฅ & ๐๐๐ฉ ๐๐ฉ ๐ฟ๐ค๐ฃ๐ โก๏ธโฃ
Which is exactly the energy Iโve been channeling the past few weeks + this weekend as I buck up on a big project + to celebrate his life ๐๐ปโฃ
Itโs not the same without him here, but Iโm beyond grateful that he is also still right here in my heart leading the way ๐คโฃ
๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ฝ๐ช๐๐ ๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐จ, ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ๐จ โก๏ธโก๏ธโก๏ธ