Fierce Miracles in the air
✨𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙞𝙩 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙈𝙞𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙡𝙚𝙨 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙞𝙧 ✨
Today marks 18 months since my dad’s passing of a heart attack. It’s not one of the ‘big’ anniversaries so it wasn’t on my radar, but yesterday had me feeling all sorts of ways about all sorts of things. But when I woke up this morning bright eyed and ready to GO, in the middle of my run I realized the date + paused here at the ocean.
In many ways the two days were mirrors of what I’ve experienced these past 18 months:
Simultaneously missing him fiercely + processing grief as I move about everyday life, while also feeling 𝘀𝗼 grounded + 𝘀𝗼 much love + 𝘀𝗼 much Grace + truly inspired around 𝘀𝗼 many things.
The tide has turned to 99% of my days being latter, but when the former comes back in it can throw me for a loop.
It’s a wild ride- and today I’m feeling extra grateful & celebratory of the life of a man who taught me so much- especially how to press forward when life throws curveballs.
Whenever ‘life would happen’ {insert whatever drama or crisis was unfolding} he would be one of the first I turned to. He’d sit me down to let me rant & rave but then would always say:
𝙊𝙠- 𝙎𝙤 𝙞𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙙.
𝙉𝙤𝙬 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙜𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙤 𝘿𝙊 𝙖𝙗𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙞𝙩?
For those first few days after he passed, I felt a deep burning inside me to carry SO many of the lessons forward- especially around purpose, health & wellness.
But once home, I just wasn’t sure about the what’s or how’s + instead just had to FEEL it all {especially that rant & rave part}.
But lately I’ve been asking myself his question again & the answers are starting to become clear.
And as he always said-
𝙊𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬, 𝙞𝙩’𝙨 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝘽𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙐𝙥 & 𝙂𝙚𝙩 𝙄𝙩 𝘿𝙤𝙣𝙚 ⚡️
Which is exactly the energy I’ve been channeling the past few weeks + this weekend as I buck up on a big project + to celebrate his life 🙏🏻
It’s not the same without him here, but I’m beyond grateful that he is also still right here in my heart leading the way 🤍
𝙏𝙞𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝘽𝙪𝙘𝙠 𝙐𝙥 𝙁𝙞𝙚𝙧𝙘𝙚 𝙊𝙣𝙚𝙨, 𝙞𝙣 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 ⚡️⚡️⚡️